.. something's really wrong with the world .. the people all over seem to be coming on to me .. everyone is making stupid mistakes, making the idea of a 'perfect world' more vague ... their words and behavious tell me that i am somewhat above them .. at the same time they are lacking their sense of responsibilities .. it's like a hurd of cows that i have to draw with my stick, that i don't have ... I'm getting so sick of telling everyone how to do things that it's freaking me out .. it's like - if i'm here to help others what the fuck are others here for ?

For most of us, art starts off as a mere hobby, and then some enhance it enough to stretch a career outta that hobby of theirs. It gives us peace and comfort to bring out whats inside'o us on the cavas, digital or analogue. Art, by many, has been translated as a feeling, only, it is tengible. Feelings arise from within one's self. And when you get hollow from inside, there's nothing more to being out. That's the death to creativity.

.. what if u knew the day u r to die ... what if u knew, but u are not sure of it .. what if its just another stupid feeling, what if this feeling is for real ... would u stop living and wait for the upcoming death, or live the rest of the days to the fullest? ... or may be u dont wanna live anymore ... the world, its people, all these colors, loose their apeal ... the things u ever wanted seem so meaningless all the sudden ... u feel ur own existance as a mere dream .. and then u look around and ask ur self, why are all these people running, what is it that keeps them going all day long ... what if all these thoughts are for real, what if its just an insane's speach.

.. ah . again the crappy feeling of non belongingness ... not from my home, not only from the city, nor the country, but all the people around me .. every single on of'em ... i keep getting these vibes, but this time its too damn strong .. its as if everyone is screwing with my head ... seems to me that all the sudden i am sitting in kindergarden class, with a bunch of most dumb peers that i could have ... eh its realy getting on to me .... why is it that people can't such simple things .. all the time the facts are infront of'em, but its as if they are looking at it with their eyes closed.

(lisetening to 'same direction by Hoobastank')